What Does It Mean?

“The world isn't just the way it is. It is how we understand it, no? And in understanding something, we bring something to it, no?
Doesn't that make life a story?”

― Yann Martel, Life of Pi

I look for meaning in my life.  I also look for the meaning of the events that happen in my life.  I think this is a very human thing.  Looking up if there is a field of psychology about this, I found that semiotics is the broad area where this falls into.

When I had my bowel obstruction surgery, the doctor told me that the intestine has it own nervous system.  I knew that from my Body Talk knowledge.  I later found out it is called the Enteric nervous system.  The scientists call this our Second Brain. It is known that this controls our emotions.

The one and only other time I was in the hospital was when I was around 12 years old for, coincidentally enough, a stomach problem.  I had similar very sharp pains in my gut which landed me in the hospital.  My dad feared it was an appendicitis attack.  He lost his older brother from a blotched appendectomy so this brought back horrific memories for him.  I had to stay around 2-3 days under observation but they could not diagnose the issue or so my dad told me.

I wonder this history of abdominal issues (there were other, more minor instances of intestinal pain and disturbances throughout my life) that culminated to the most painful time in my life were signals to me to pay attention to this gut wisdom.

I knew about this source of intelligence and have tried to access that in the past multiple times and having taken several classes to assist me but to no avail.

I believe that my physical maladies are messages from my body to pay attention to the wisdom it has for me.  The frustrating part is that I have tried for years.  I am at loss on what I can do.  This painful time of my bowel being obstructed.

So maybe this surgery was the "fix" for me to access my gut intelligence now.  Maybe this opened up the energy channels so I can be more intuitive.  If I had to make up the lesson for this traumatic time that put me painfully out of commission, then for now, I'm positing this as the reason this happened to me.